i got her back!
i think all we needed was a little space,because nobody is beating the s*** out of the the other.
nobodys curseing nobody!
that feels great..i thought i liked the violence but that was the dumbest thought i ever had.
i gots my happiness back...

and the cutting myself is like a energy rush..btw i checked out the sermon,its pretty good,that chick(jm) f***ing awesome sounding,funny and seems verry intelegent to be able to come up wit all dat

yeh i know the violence isnt good but im used to it..its f***ed up to say,but i like it.
i was grown in a neighborhood of violence and a piece of s*** dad who punch me and my brotha.
whos this JM?
i could understand the trust not being able to be gained back if i had cheated more than once and when i f*** up something and lie about it or whatever,i always come clean.i am honest when i am sober but she pushes me to use. i f***in wanna say that i hate her and that ima gonna forget her but i cant.i kno they r betta girls,but we been togetha like foreva and idk wtf to do without her n the violence n alcohol

hey 1st of all you need to stop hurting each other physically !!! that is not healthy and jesus christ if she punched you in the mouth i would not take her back wtf??? that is domestic violence and if she punched you once, she can punch you twice.... but anywayy...

well to tell you the truth i dont blame her for not accepting you back ..if you keep promising her and than yet agin you break the promise, you yourslef is telling her not to trust you..if i were her i would have broken up with you from the 1st moment you cheated..i know im sounding harsh but that is me..once soemone betrays me its is hard for me to trust him agian...

if you really wnat her iether for sex or cuz you love her well than fight for her till you cannot do nothing more than you did...if she doesnt wnat to talk to you tahn f*** it...im not telling to move on..that is s*** !!!!! its easy said than done..what im going to tell you is taht you have to learn to live without her in ur life even though you are going to cry and miss her like hell and ending in a depression..but you have to face the truth and the fact that she is not in your life anymore...that is what makes you stronger and ready to fight life cuz as you said life is a motherf***ing b**** and it is not easy...it keeps droppng bombs and we have to deal with it..im talking from experince here !!! i had a best friend who i was crazy about and i found out he does not feel the same..this happened about 9 months ago and look at me i am still down and sad about him...i did not move on ... why? cuz its not easy!! but what did i do? i had to get used to not listening to his voice anymore, or his laugh or his smell or our own jokes....it takes time to move on its not like just clicking your finger.....it may take years to forget a person.

and stop cutting urslef..that wont help..that can take you to the other side of the world..if you are trying to stop drinking, dont start another habit plss !!!! try to release your anger and sadness in something else..for example in music!!! my ears were going to explode with pink's music during that dark pahase i was...listen to pink's songs..they are a therapy..if it werent for her or for the pinkian family i dont know what i woul have done..JM's seremones also helped me alot and im so gratefull to JM !!

good luck with your gf and as i said : fight for her as hard as you can but than whe you get too tired and nothing works out, well you have to get up on your feeth and try to biult your life without her..there are much better girls than her which you did not yet meet.. i usure you

hope that helps
Jessica

i cant help but to think about the times...shes threw me on the couch punched me in the mouth.
all the times shes provoked me to choke her

me too! i jus wanna drink about it but i kno im an addict and alcoholic and if i take even one drink....it will be relapse to hell n bakkkk

i know ít's suck but if you talk nice and don't do stupid thinks or say stupid thiks.
because she is already hurts.

it need some time

I hope it work out between you

glad things worked out for ya.hopefully the same will be for me except sooner

a few years ago i had a really big fight with my best friend. She lives next to us (no more) but back than we wher always together in the weekends.
but when she get a boyfriend was less. but we were best friend. but when here boyfriend cheating on here ( i saw that, back than i wish it wasn't me that i saw that) I told to a other friend what i should do ( she doesn't know her) she sad you should tell her because it is you best friend.

So it take a week of more ( i don't know execly) and she was really mad at me, she doesn't believe me. and wouldn't talk to me.

I was really hurt and tride everything. But she won't listen.
That is tought f**** off.

than about 6 months further she text me and was really sorry that she say really horrible tinks tome.

now we talk normanly and going out some time but it's not like back than.
she don't longer lives in the same town.

yeh..life is a total b****!!!! i am soo soo hooked on p****.worse than i was on alcohol and pills..ect... i think she will come around but maybe that just fantasy.

oi c***mouth i f***ed around on my partner i told him and hes still pissed of at me nuthin i can do about it we prob r gunna break up it hurts but thats lfe . he wont 4 give me and i dont blame him cause if he did it i woulda cut his d*** of and ended it . honesttly get the f*** ova it move on its gunna hurt but life hurts ya know and it had gr8 highs and s*** house lows. u say u and ya gf fist fight wel thats s*** no one should hit any1 if he hurt me like that wel his d*** and balls woulda been sliced of . but thats me i dont hurt sum1 physically i just f*** them ova in other ways . but that me lol. u reckon the sex way gr8 wel u know wat ya relationship was just about f***ing and thats good but thats al it had. move on ya p**** wiped mate like my daughter is with her gf . move on find sum one better period

nicely spoken...damn good advice,but it seems i cant forgive myself becuz ive lost the most important thing in the world to me,the most beautiful girl in the world. i can not even get her to talk to me or be around her so how do i say s***.i guess i understand why she is so pissed,but i cant take it. before i was the happiest person in the world constantly even when we were fighting.now,i am just so so ill.i hav started cuttin my wrist lately,that wat im passionate for now and thats f***in pathetic.is it not??

hey girl if the person ya hurt doesnt want u back then u have to move on at least go n ask them if u dont want me back fine but at som point can u find it n ya heart to forgive me without forgetting. mayb she will r already has but that doesnt mean she has to let u back n as hard as it is to hear every1 has their breakin point wen they have had enuff crap ive had ppl take advatage of me n moved on but that doesnt mean i hav forgotten wat they did remeberin s how u learn not to let s*** happen again i wish u the best tho n jus remeber this you r young so u still got ya whole life to go thru s*** n heart break u r learning a lesson early n life n its a vaulable one so use it to make urself a better person so u dont hurt the next person if she cant forgive you then thats on her shoulders but u need to forgive yaself for wat u did its the only way to heal yaself ok dont matter if it was lust r love forgive yaself learn ur lesson n move on

thank you f*** face..that really did help.
the only thing i do not understand is... how can you not forgive someone if you love them?
i was honest and up front with my girlfriend but it just brought all this chaotic s*** down.
if your man or woman,whatever you go for,cheated on you,while being drunk,but then admitted it because they knew it was wrong and guilt wouldnt shut the f*** up. i have tried so hard to move on and just say f*** it but i cant. i dont really understand that though because when we were together,most of the time,all we did was argue and fist fight. the only thing that was really good about it was the sex and the peaceful moments.well,come to think of it..now,i see the argueing and mouth busting as fun.

reguards,as you say,
c***mouth..

seriously,thank you that did help.
oh yeah,one more thing,wouldnt the s***ty situation that i be in be considered lust instead of love??

well ya know wat u cant take back wat ya said u have 2 answer 2 ya self u may have burnt bridges get get on with it and if that person u pissed of wont 4give u move on as hard as it seems u have 2 fuck them of and start again and again and again life is al about doing that . kicking bad habits is very fucking hard i know i live with kicking that monkey out the door every second of my life it has got better but other s*** still knocks on the door and the way u deal with it is ya choice. for a long time i had written on my bathroom mirror " you are looking at the problem " and when i accepted that phrase life ripped the s*** outta me . 2day i have written on the mirror " good morning good morning how's ya beautiful face " and u know wat i believe that and i live that phrase. hope this helps c***mouth

regards
punchy

well, is anyone going to say anything to try to help me out?im leaving california and going back to philly, soon! i would like to maybe have some s*** figured out,before i return home. I want to get my girlfriend back!