Hmmm... Is this one of those things, where I scream like a youngen, and propose ? Ahh !

Well.. Why I'm a fan, not really going to tell you "you should be fan, because she rocks" Yes.. indeed. P!nk, does rock. Rocks it out with style, feeling, emotion, appearance, vocals, sexuality, flexibility (if only i took up gymnastics) , opinion... and more importantly... truth.

I guess for me, there's not many songs that I can say "Where were you that night? were you watching?" or... "ARE you that person inside my head"

As a young child, I had my innocence taken away from me, at the beautiful age of 2. At the age of 5.. I knew what sex was, I knew what parts of the anatomy went where.

It wasn't until at school, that I started learning Sex Ed, that I was taught "Penetration by the penis causing the hymen to break, means.. you're no longer a virgin"

Our whole schooling we're taught. .. Virginity is the one thing you want to keep, means your're pure, save it for the one you truly love....... rah rah rah rah.

Well! I didn't have it.. I didn't know, that when I was being taken advantage of, that the minute i grew older; i'd be more affected by what was happening, than what i was at that very point.

Hence the line.. "too young to know I had it, so it didn't hurt to lose it"

I didn't know that I had something that was meant to be so "beautiful" and the only pain i felt was the actual stretching and scarring of my insides by a grown mans belongings! I did know it was wrong, and each time it happened, ... the longer it felt... hence the line 'One night to you, lasted 6 weeks for me"..

I was scared, and I'm 22 now, I'm still scared. I cannot go driving with anyone, without thinking they're going to rape me. I can't sit with my own brothers.. without thinking.. what are they going to do to me.. I was terrified, that I wouldn't go to our other male family friends, who'd never done anything before ..... incase i got hurt again... I was 7 or 8 when the sexual side of things stopped . . . I'm 22.. it's been a long time.. a long time.. and im still not healed, I'm not healed emotionally.. or physically.. I can't have a man look at me.. without me being scared... I can't allow myself to love.... because what everyone finds so spectacular or beautiful.. i found... or find.. pain.. memories... angst.. hence the lines
"Say hello to hesitance
To everyone I meet
Thanks to you years ago
I guess I'll never know
What love means to me but oh"

I guess I'm not going to go through the whole song, even though it's all relevant..

the reason Im a fan.. is because.. it's like she knows me.. like.. no other, and yet.. she hasn't even met me. Wouldn't know me if I walked up to her and said "Hey, my name is FunkyChicka" and I think you're grand!!!

I have a respect for all music artists and all music. BUT in saying that, I would not really go out of my way to meet or go to a concert... Pink, Alecia Moore, onthe other hand.. is the only one.. that I want to meet. through her music she's helped me.. and yet.. all i've had to do was listen.

It's so amazing how much I actually feel listening to her songs.. I see a picture of her and it's like.. I want to just give her one simple hug and walk away.

Her songs, ease my pain.. but can you imagine.. or.. im trying to imagine.. what a simple conversation would be like.. or a simple hug.. if words from the soul through music, can heal all wounds for a short time.. a hug most definitely can heal all wounds for a longer time.

Her songs, remind me.. it's okay.. all will be okay.. and more to the point.. be strong, be who you are.. keep trying.. you can do anything you want to do.. aim high.

I love her smile, I love her personality, I love her laugh. I love her ability to have the best damn shows, produce the best damn music...and still have time to support the most important things to her... aswell as her fans..

Sooooooooo why am I a fan.. Because she rocks haha! I love her to bits, I love her work.. I love what she does, how she sounds.. and I love having something to look forward to.. the next time she's in Australia. Because I'll be there! Upfront and centre! I'll be there!!

Working towards dream one, meeting my idol.. the one I want to be like when I'm a grown up (hehehe!)

If you got this far.. Thank you.. she also gives me the safe feeling to open up.